Although I have been a member of this forum for a while now I still feel so lost.... The deception is really rocking my brain... I am still in the awakening process and I get mislead quite easily... I dont know who and what to believe anymore... and the things I do know are kinda hard to hold in. Especially when I have so many family members and friends who are unwilling to listen or think that I have completely lost it! I am so tired of being ridiculed about the things I'm trying to set forth... Its like I'm in a box all alone with no one to help... I frequent this site quite often to get insight and I actually feel more comfortable here (amongst strangers) than I do with my own family and friends! I have ALOT of information stored in my brain via the videos and websites.. however some things I still find hard to dissect. Can anyone offer me some guidance? Where do I go from here?